I'm going to fail my finals blahhh
Mainly because I don't want to write those papers.
But I will. I have to. Have to.
Jersey on Tuesday. Excited
 
Shoot my cupid out of the sky
Break off his wings and ask him just why
He played such a sick joke on the fool that is me
And curse me with this sickness
Your love is my heart disease.

I spent the last few days in and out of St Joe's hospital here in towson for nothing. I feel terrible, awful still. They think I have gaul bladder disease but can't prove it so I have to go to my own doctor at home. Fuck i feel so awful and I hate hospitals. 
Here is why:
So my dad gets sick, he is stranded on the couch for a few days and my mom starts throwing up and can't function. I take her to the ER and like 5hours later they want to operate on her appendix. Whatever, not hard. Tim did it and went into the army 4 months later. No. Wrong. They fuck up and she ends up unconscious with a respirator down her throat for 2 days and I'm the only one there until 5 in the morning. It was terrible.
And now i'm afraid i'll go to the ER tonight because i'm in pain and i'm crying and i shouldn't post this but if i tell anyone in towson whats going on they'll never leave me alone tonight. 
Damnit.

It's been a few days so I figured I'd update. It's beautiful outside and I'm still in bed...and I don't want to get out to eat which has very conflicting results. These last few days I've been crazy stressed out so I'm boycotting the phone. I'm just not feeling into talking about nothing and something all at the same time. Blurgh.
I might just pass intro to law though. See what happens when study (go to class)
I haven't been home in a few weeks and it's a little weird because everyone is done school but we're here until the fucking 22nd. Yeah, ok danke best friends.
I bought FIRE FLY. Enough said.
Let's just say I play in dangerous waters
Love

Current Music: Tilly and The Wall

If you're stupid enough to do something in the middle of the night in the courtyard and you are loud just know that you have probably waken me up and I'm probably watching you. Like right now. Skateboard somewhere else. Not really, I don't sleep so you're awkwardly keeping me company.
I got accepted to Kutztown but I'm feeling Towson.
I decided that I don't need to make decisions anymore. 
I have a job interview with the Baltimore Tennis Patrons on thursday. 
This sums up me and Jenn:
            "I want to be a robot. I'm going to replace my blood with oil"
            "Have fun when I die and you're all alone."
Harsh, but true. She grounds me.
I am terribly terribly surrounded by pressure. I like the term open.
Notice me. Do it. 
I wonder if anyone reads this...I know Stacie does :-) thanksss girl
I'm pretty sure I'm going to puke from my allergies. Gross but true
Can we just have a cuddle party? Let's throw away our stress in a pile of limbs.
I'm going to fun parties this weekend. I should get someone to go with me. I'll do it later.

Current Mood: confused

People who love you shouldn't get to make you feel guilty for trying to have a life. I'm miss being alone

Congrats Stacie on the myspace :-)

Tomorrow is Tigerfest. I paid $2 to see fucking Dashboard. Thrilled. Excited. Let's dance.

My parents informed me today that I freak out in spring time. Apparently I have been doing it for the last few years. Something happens and I just freak out.

Told my mom I wasn't going for education and she didn't know what to say. If you know me you know that I would scar another human being I'm responsible for. Hell, I can't even babysit. Also, my dog locked her out of the car the other day. Hilarious.

Probably found an apartment in Cockeysville. All I want it my own room. I need to be alone sometimes. But is it worth it?

Just so you know,
When we get home
We're through

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Shiny Toy Guns- Chemistry of a Car Crash

MW 11-12:15 History 100
MW 12:30-1:45 Comm 131
MW 2-3:15 History 160

TuTh 11-12:15 Anth 207
TuTh 12:30-1:45 English 102

No friday classes! No classes before 11! Some of them even count towards my major despite what my "advisor" wanted me to take. What an idiot. Why would i take ISTC 100? I'm not elementary edu pay attention to what I'm saying! I'm most excited for Anth 207 and History 160 because it's a brand new class and I'm the only one who has signed up for it

What is this, Mean Girls?
"friends" counts for nothing

Oh yea, still homeless

Current Mood: nostalgic

You know exercise is important.

Current Mood: indifferent

Friday was a blast. I went over to Stacie's apartment when the kids went to play frisbee and I ended up staying over (hey...thanks again) I slept on an air matress that i refused to have blown up the entire way because I was exhausted and it was 3 in the morning. I woke up the next morning, watched Stacie leave for a bus to MD and slept for another 2 hours in her bed (hey...really thanks again lol) I had a greeeat time.
I have no where to live next semester. Shit. 
I'm having burgers with the security guard tonight. Last night when I crawled in at 4 we had like a half hour conversation about her family and it turned into eating food thought I've consumed enough chinese to feed a small latin american country.
yay

Weekend plans?
Friday : go home immediately following class. Take shower. Hang out with my mommy cause it was her birthday tuesday. Hang out with Stacie. Go to drexel party?
Saturday : come back to school. do nothing. go to party in Eva's hotel dorm room (we own a hotel..hard to explain)
Sunday: remember to do work for NOTHING i'm pretty much done until FINALSSSSSS

I'm excited to :
Bring my sewing machine to school finally
Read a new book that isn't about animal sex
Studying mating behaviors in my tribe (thats you)
Find a place to live
Get classes for next semester

I don't have any money so for my mom's birthday I made her earrings. I hope that's good enough.

Peace

Current Mood: optimistic

I really am too lazy and poor to transfer. I guess I'll stay at Towson. I'm going to have to live off campus, which will be hella awesome. 
So what should I take?
Stupid me, I should take classes and not pull this shit i pulled this semester.

Current Mood: crazy